this wouldn’t be the first time I’ve taken a stroll,
a lonely troubled walk with my haunted contorted soul
checking every little footstep that I’ve taken with you
needing to see, to hope, to know that each step was true

having been through this process so many damned times
there’s nothing keeping me back from uncovering those mines
that threaten to explode with any slight little motion
because I’ve chosen to neglect them for too many seasons

seeing as we’re two worlds apart, we’re given so much freedom
but that freedom was given, respected against any treason
i never thought that we were ever see this dark sad day
where the truth reveals your own wayward stray way

so i finally see that you never believed in a “one and only”
but instead sought to satisfy your desires surreptitiously
now here i am, all alone, still in a disbelieving state
wondering what i ever did to deserve this cruel fate

but the crux of the matter comes only from my own delusion
for wanting to believe this false reality and ignoring the contusion
time to take a step back and let myself heal from this encounter
hopefully I’ll never again let myself be trickened and falter

05.19.09, 6.10-6.24pm

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Just needed to get some poetic writing out, since it’s been a while since I’ve last done it.