So I went to talk a walk one day, just for the heck of it, because I felt that some fresh air would do my body good. And of course, scientists have proven that point too, so I figured, they couldn’t be wrong. There I was, merely ambling along, minding my own business, enjoying the sights and sounds that surrounded me on my little sojourn around the woods.

The forest is a fascinating place, and because I was so entranced by its majesty, I soon lost my path. The trees in this area weren’t like the friendly green giants that seemed peaceful and inviting. Instead, these characters seemed to have faces that were forever frozen in the act of letting out a horrible moan. Their arms crawled along each others branches, grasping for anything they could grab hold of. Even the day seemed to change drastically just to set the mood; no longer was it bright and sunny; even with the emptiness of branches, no sunlight seeped into this wretched area.

I’ll admit. I was lost. Guys usually don’t do that type of thing. I mean, we’re always supposed to know where we’re going, what we’re doing, and all that. But truthfully, I can own up to my limitations and honestly say that I had no clue as to where I was. Well, yeah, I was still in the forest where all the trees and woodland creatures live, but I did not recognize this part of the woods at all. I ended up wandering for like, I’m not sure, maybe thirty days or so. Thirty days of darkness, of being in unfamiliar territory as I was forced to soldier on and brave through these unfriendly waters.

It wasn’t an easy time for me. I mean, I pride myself on knowing what’s happening, where I’m going, what’s going on around me, and never getting caught off guard. But I never saw it coming. And then it hit me. I couldn’t just sit down and make camp and wait for something to bail me out of this no man’s land. No. That thought never crossed my mind. I’m a guy for crying out loud. I had to get out of this one all by myself. No matter what it took. I knew that I had the toughness to just deal with the situation at hand. I mean, armed with my two bare hands, I was more than well equipped to deal with the harsh realities of nature, of being out by myself without any provisions. I’m kidding.

I struggled. By the time I got out of that void, I was definitely not the same person as I was when I entered it. The things I’ve seen, the experiences that I’ve had to go through; I can’t explicate it again for your reading enjoyment. I’m sorry. It was just too dark of a time for me to recall. I’m sure you understand.

Thankfully, yes, I was able to escape the horror that afflicted me. I was able to get back to where I had left off, not too long ago. Except, something just didn’t seem right.

For you see, I was never able to find my way back. Once I entered the abyss, it seemed to lead me to a whole ‘nother area. I don’t know why the Fates decided to be such bitches and play with my life, but here I was again, in a situation so very similar to my previous one. Déjà vu anyone? But yeah. My life was definitely not going well. And I just can’t take another month in this kind of hell. I’m serious, I can’t tell you what happened to me, but just know, I would really like to never have to go through that experience, ever, again.

But here I am. Stuck. Again.

03.05.08, 11.30-11.47pm